This weekend, we took an impromptu mini-vacation for ourselves. Totally unplanned, totally last minute. We decided to drive a few hours north east to the Michigan Lakeshore. Let me just say, it was WONDERFUL! We both completely let go of the every day stress and decompressed on the beach. The weather was awesome and we both sunbathed and relaxed in complete bliss. Time stood still while we were out at the beach, playing in the water or reading through our books and magazines. I am so happy that we made this last minute decision and took off. While my house could use some serious TLC as far as cleaning is concerned, I didn’t care about a thing while we were away.
One thing though that I kept seeing my mind wander to was watching the families around us, particularly those with infants and toddlers. I imagined what it would be like if Nick and I were on vacation with our future child. How fun it would be to splash each other in the waves or build sand castles. I saw new moms breastfeeding their babies and walking up and down the beaches cradling them in their arms. I paid attention to families at the restaurants and how they handled the kids when they became unruly. It just gave perspective and once again enforced my wish to want to be a mom. I know that I want this more than anything in the world. Over the years I have heard people talk about what they call “the pull” or “the calling” to want to me a mother. While I have had this throughout my infertility, I am feeling the call and pull more and more these days. Its to the point where I do nothing but think about being a mom. It’s the first thing I wake up to and the last thing I think about when I fall asleep. I have also started to have vivid dreams about becoming a mom through adoption. I am hoping that these are signs for good things to happen in the near future.
While we try to patiently wait for the call, I am scavenging the internet for anything and everything about adoption. Probably not entirely healthy, but I can’t help it. I have to do it. What if I miss something. I am also getting the incredible itch to start putting together the nursery. One of Nick’s Cousin’s from CA has 3 boys. While they were in town, she gave me leftover diapers and formula to use for our baby. My best friend from Germany sent me a message last week with pictures of baby outfits she’s been keeping locked up for our baby. It made me cry when she told me. I am so thankful for these little things. However, it has put in full-on nesting mode I think. I have already set-up our baby registries with Amazon, Babies’R’us and Target. I will probably go out later this week and start getting some things. In my dreams, we get the call and I am completely unprepared. The stores are closed and we go the hospital with nothing. I know I am overreacting, but I want to have a peace of mind, knowing I at least have things in place for the first couple of weeks while we are at home before we’ll have our shower and buy the bulk of everything we need.
Now, back to the beachin’ good time that we had in Michigan. I really have to say, I was pleasantly surprised at the beauty of the Michigan Lakeshore. We have been to Wisconsin a lot. This was the first time we were on the other side of the lake, and certainly not our last. I can’t wait to go back soon! I will let the pictures below speak for themselves. 🙂
I hope everyone else had a great Labor Day weekend and enjoyed this beautiful weather!
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